It's been a long time since I've shared my thoughts on here, and let me tell you so very much has happened since my first post. So let me lay it all out on the table for you. In mid November, 2011 I was diagnosed with major depression. While this was not a huge shock to me, because of the way I had been feeling, it was still hard to swallow. At first I felt like I was broken, and couldnt be fixed. It was also really hard to share with my friends and family. I was ashamed and slightly embarassed. Depression isnt something that people tend to not know how to approach, which is why I want to be able to openly talk about it, share some insight, and maybe help someone whos been wher I was.
I've learned so much in the past couple months, and it has been a struggle. Its been so worth it though. I now am able to feel emotion again. I feel happiness and love which I was unable to feel before. I have also met some amazing new friends though Twitter who have opened my eyes to things that I would not have seen if it had not been for them. For that I am so thankful.
I have learned that in life, we have choices. We are in control of those choices. What am I choosing? to be happy and to be love. Is that something I have to work at every day? Yes. Do I still have "dark days?" Yes. Depression is not something you can wish away, or blink and make it go away, its a long haul to the road to recovery but it is possible. I am so glad that I was able to see that I needed help and got it.
Life is too short to be anything but happy.
My goal for today? Make those I love feel loved, let them know how much they mean to me. I challenge you to do the same.
xoxo
Chrissie
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